This job I have been at is insane. The highs and lows are amazing, its a total roller coaster. The industry I am in is pretty unstable, and lot of wild west stuff going on, a real frontier. Trailblazing. Outlaws. You get me.
I have been running advertising operations, revenue operations, technical operations for a substantial business. I have some help that is getting hired, but this is intense.
I have been working myself to the bone. Sleep deprivation, late nights, early mornings. Nights and weekends. Headaches. Mid-day naps just to make it. Long 1 hour drives to work on occasion which is always pretty risky getting back as I am drowsy on the road.
The occasional all-nighter gets me pretty messed up 1-2 days later for at least a day. Its weird. I used to be able to push and punish my body without consequences. But now its like I am paying for my workaholic sins materially. Remember that neurosurgeon said nothing I can do will affect the next time my brain bleeds? I am living with reckless abandon.
I have been getting pretty upset of late. Its really been getting too much. It just feels wrong.